Don’t Think I’ll Ever Be Smart Enough….
November 23, 2011
Went to office hours today.
I don’t think I’ll EVER be smart enough to get into a PhD program in Linguistics. I feel so stupid coming out of office hours all the time. 
I mean, yeah…going to office hrs today was SUPER helpful/useful in figuring out Assignment 5 (in regard to constructing morphological rules to create trees) and *why* I didn’t understand it before…
BUT
at the same time, I left feeling super stupid.
Like. OMG YOU WOULDN’T BELIEVE STUPID.
LIKE.
OH MY FREAKING GOSH I’M SO STUPID
Stupid.
Like… forgetting about Syntax????
OMG.
AND THEN not being able to figure out what verbs inflect for? (LIKE. OH MY FREAKING GOSH!)
Yeah.
I wish I could go to office hours and come out feeling smart & accomplished. Don’t think that’s going to happen any time soon…. :/
On a more serious note… I really think once I can start going to office hours more often that it’ll help. I get so worked up and so nervous about the whole experience that I’m unable to think or speak correctly because I’m so nervous.
Why am I so nervous about all this?
It’s crazy, because my TAs are what… 4~5 years older than I am? At the same time, I’m.so.intimidated.by.all.of.them because they KNOW so much! HAR. OOOOHH I wish I could be smart like that one day!
